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3月15日竭誠為主
 
 3月15日竭誠為主  .
 
3/15/2018


315 驚懼的訓練

跟從的人也害怕。(可十32

在開始時候,我們自認為清楚認識基督耶穌便歡喜地變賣所有,投身在愛的勞苦中。但如今卻不敢這樣自信了。耶穌走在前面,看來多麼陌生。耶穌在前頭走,門徒就稀奇。

在耶穌身上有另一面叫門徒寒心,使他們整個屬靈生命似乎喘不過氣來。這超奇的一位,面如堅石,步伐穩重,令人戰慄起來。他不再是策士同伴,因他心裡所想的,我一點也不知道,我只有驚愕的份兒。初時我自以為很瞭解他,可是現今卻不敢如此自信。我開始體會到:他與我之間,有了距離;我不再與他親熱了。他在我前面,卻不轉過身來。我不曉得他到哪裡去,那目的地顯得極其遙遠。

耶穌基督要發掘人一切的罪孽與憂苦,使他顯得怪異。看見他這一面時,我們就不認識他了。對於他生命特異之處,也辨認不出來,所以根本不知道從何跟隨他。他走在前頭——一位陌生的領路者——我們卻不能與他並駕齊驅。

要過門徒的生活,這種驚愕的訓練,是不可或缺的。但有一種危險,就是回到自己的火場中去,點燃著自己的熱心(賽五十10-11)。當驚愕莫名的黑暗臨到你,要忍耐直到它過去,因為從這經歷中出來後,跟隨耶穌就成為說不出來的喜樂了。

祈禱想到將來,我的心是何等不安;猶幸我並非老是如此,所以我讚美你。但願除你以外,我再無需抓緊任何東西!求你使我的熱忱不減退,也不鬆懈下來。


March 15 The Discipline Of Dismay

“And as they followed, they were afraid.” Mark 10:32

At the beginning we were sure we knew all about Jesus Christ, it was a delight to sell all and to fling ourselves out in a hardihood of love; but now we are not quite so sure. Jesus is on in front and He looks strange: “Jesus went before them and they were amazed.”

There is an aspect of Jesus that chills the heart of a disciple to the core and makes the whole spiritual life gasp for breath. This strange Being with His face “set like a flint” and His striding determination, strikes terror into me. He is no longer Counsellor and Comrade, He is taken up with a point of view I know nothing about, and I am amazed at Him. At first I was confident that I understood Him, but now I am not so sure. I begin to realize there is a distance between Jesus Christ and me; I can no longer be familiar with Him. He is ahead of me and He never turns round; I have no idea where He is going, and the goal has become strangely far off.

Jesus Christ had to fathom every sin and every sorrow man could experience, and that is what makes Him seem strange. When we see Him in this aspect we do not know Him, we do not recognize one feature of His life, and we do not know how to begin to follow Him. He is on in front, a Leader Who is very strange, and we have no comradeship with Him.

The discipline of dismay is essential in the life of discipleship. The danger is to get back to a little fire of our own and kindle enthusiasm at it cf. Isaiah 1:10-11. When the darkness of dismay comes, endure until it is over, because out of it will come that following of Jesus which is an unspeakable joy.


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